Between Survival and Becoming: Rebuilding the Woman I was Never Allowed to Be

Between Survival & Becoming is a raw and deeply personal memoir about heartbreak, healing, motherhood, and the journey back to yourself.

Some chapters may feel repetitive, and that’s intentional. If it feels repetitive to read, imagine living it for years with little to no change. Those who have lived through it will understand.

The first ten chapters were the hardest to write because they forced me to relive the pain. Looking back, what hurts most isn’t what happened, it’s realizing how long I stayed, believing things would eventually change.

Through honest reflection and vulnerable storytelling, Vanessa Guzman shares what it feels like to lose yourself while carrying the weight of everyone else. From emotional exhaustion and silent battles to rebuilding self-worth and choosing peace over survival, this memoir is a testament to the strength it takes to walk away, heal, and begin again.

Inside these pages, you’ll discover:

• Healing after heartbreak
• Emotional resilience and personal growth
• Motherhood and identity
• Boundaries and self-worth
• Faith, survival, and transformation

More than a story of loss, Between Survival & Becoming is a story of rediscovering your voice, reclaiming your peace, and remembering who you were before survival made you forget.

If you’ve ever felt unseen, emotionally exhausted, or afraid to let go of what no longer feels like home, this book is a reminder that healing isn’t about becoming someone else, it’s about finding your way back to yourself.