Still Here: Holding On and Letting Go

"I just didn't think I'd be able to survive after he didn't."

When Michelle Love's fifteen-year-old son, BJ, died after a courageous battle with leukemia, her world shattered.

In the days, months, and years that followed, she faced the impossible task of learning how to live in a world without him.

What began as a mother's desperate search for a reason to keep going became an unexpected journey of grief, healing, spiritual awakening, and transformation.

Through memories, journal entries, and reflections spanning more than a decade, Michelle shares the heartbreaking reality of losing a child while discovering that healing does not mean letting go of love.

Honest, vulnerable, and ultimately hopeful, Still Here: Holding On and Letting Go is a story about surviving the unsurvivable, finding meaning after devastating loss, and learning that love can continue long after a life has ended.

For anyone navigating grief, searching for comfort, or wondering if joy can ever return, this memoir offers a gentle reminder:

Some relationships do not end when a life does.

Still here.