Letters to Esther: A Journey of Discovering God's Grace and Glory Through the Unknown Grief of Abortion

Letters to Esther is a deeply personal memoir written in the aftermath of abortion, grief, faith, and mental health. Through a series of letters and reflections, the author writes to the child she chose not to carry to term - naming the love, loss, shame, relief, sorrow, and longing that coexist in the wake of that decision.

This book does not offer political conclusions or tidy theology. Instead, it bears witness to the emotional and spiritual reality of living after abortion. It explores how grief can remain hidden beneath functioning, how bipolar disorder can shape the way pain is carried and expressed, and how faith can fracture, wrestle, and ultimately reform in the presence of loss.
Written for those who have experienced abortion and felt unseen in its emotional aftermath, Letters to Esther creates space for honesty without judgment. It sits with the readers in the tension: loving deeply while grieving deeply, believing in God while wrestling with Him, and learning how to live after a loss that is often carried in silence.

Tender, unfiltered, and deeply human, Letters to Esther is not a book about forgetting. It is about remembering, honoring love that still exists, and trusting that even in the most broken places, God is still present, still working, and still redeeming.